I knew I’d find it if I looked hard enough

Whoa, it’s been a heck of a week. The end of a term is always marked by chaos, long days and longer nights, and a certain level of anxiety and distraction that ends, rather suddenly, with the click of a mouse and a command: enter.

That’s a funny word: enter. In this case, it doesn’t mean enter at all. Well, it does mean “enter the information into whatever it is that goes on in the computer’s brain”, but for us in the real world, to end something — put it away — is not entering at all, but more of an exit.

Believe me when I say I have wanted to exit all week. Exit my office. Exit work. Exit this hard life.

Stop. Don’t read that last exit the wrong way. I was just thinking about heaven … and heavenly it must be to be surrounded by God, all the time.  Enveloped by His grace, all the time. And then I thought to myself, Self, what are you talking about? You already have that. Look.

And I did. Here is what I found:

  • Life isn’t a game show, so I have the “phone a friend” option all the time.

and

  • God is present in my life all the time, even if I’m the one with the vision problem.

Just when I thought all that profoundness was enough, I also found laughter in unexpected places.  I don’t need flashing lights and a game show buzzer to know that’s a winner. All the time.

contemplating…

Ce qui embellit le désert, dit le petit prince, c’est qu’il cache un puits quelque part…

“What makes the desert beautiful,” said the little prince, “is that somewhere it hides a well…”

before and after

Usually the before pictures are scary, and the after pictures show marked improvement.

That’s the case, here, too. I wouldn’t trade the last 25 years for a firm butt and the opportunity to wear (unselfconsciously) a sleeveless blouse. I used to drink cheap wine, too.

There’s something to be said for a mature palate.

Happy Anniversary, mi amor.

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